His Letter

Hindi ko na matandaan kung kailan ito nangyari, siguro'y bandang January.

We fought that day (well everyday naman kaya naririndi sa'tin ung mga kasama natin hahaha!) Nakalimutan ko rin kung ano yung pinag-awayan natin pero alam ko na maliit lang na bagay 'yon (hahahah!)

Hindi tayo nagpapansinan, nag-uusap. Para lang tayong hangin sa isa't-isa at walang gusto magbaba ng pride.

Dumating yung oras ng break mo kaya kami na lang ni ate yung natira at naispan kong magkalkal ng kung ano-ano dahil wala rin naman akong magawa then I saw something sa likod ng notebok. I'm not sure kung ano man tawag do'n; poem or letter but one thing I'm sure, it's painful.

"I don't like everything that I did and I think.

I tried explaining why I was sad but not nothing could come out

that was when I realised

that I am alone

and

nobody come out and asked if what is wrong

Only me, I and myself know what I feel right now

I think

I'm stupid

I think

I'm selfish

I think I'm paranoid

I think I'm childish

No one can understand me

I'm sick of being like this

I don't like these feeling

My heart is aching."

I wanted to cry out loud that time after reading your painful letter.

Masyado ata akong naging hard sayo na hindi ko na naisip na nasasaktan ka na.

I'm such a insensitive na hindi ko na naiisip kung ano ba nararamdaman mo sa t'wing inaaway kita or hindi kita pinapansin.

I feel sorry for myself for being brat, insensitive na wala ka namang ibang ginawa kun'di isipin ako, ang kapakanan ko.

Sorry.

Until now sumasakit pa rin ang puso ko t'wing nababasa ko 'tong sulat mo.

Sorry.

Kasi noong tinanong mo ako kung may nakita ba akong poem na nasa notebook nagsinungaling ako. Sinabi kong wala kahit ilang araw na nasa akin iyon.

Sorry for making you feel that way.

I'm so sorry.

And don't be sorry dahil ganyan ka.

Walang mali sayo. Walang problema sayo.

At kung iniisip mo na walang nakakaintindi sayo, nandito ako.

Kung feeling mo buong tao sa mundo hindi ka naiintindihan, ako nandito.

Naiintindihan kita

At iintindihin kita.